Words can't describe how much I miss you. I miss your "E-boys", your laughter, your smile and even you being grumpy with me because I forgot part of your candy. I wish more than anything you were still here with me, but I know if you were here you would still be in that terrible pain. I know you know that I was always with you. I tried everything I knew to keep you with me. But that last month, I couldn't let you suffer anymore and I felt I was just having the doctors keeping you going for me. I finally knew I had to let go and let you be peaceful finally. When I agreed to the hospice I want and need you to know that I never wanted to let you go. In the hospital, they couldn't give you any more medicine for all the pain except at certain times. Then you couldn't eat or drink anymore. I did this for three weeks. I thought the chemo was working. I don't understand why all of a sudden it stopped and you got so ill. It was so hard for me to watch you leave with the angels. But I now know I was very blessed to be there and get to hold you during the last breath. Some people don't get the chance to say goodbye and I did. Everyone told me I did the right thing by going on hospice because it was then all about keeping you comfortable and without pain. Please know I did not give up on you. Please. I look at the stars every night and I know you're up there lighting up the sky. I know you're dancing and singing with the angels now. You were always such a free spirit and now you are finally free from all the pain. Just know that I love you now and forever and I miss you so much. All my love, Cheri
Thiinking of you Ellie. / Beverly Brown (Thoams Allen) (Visitor)
11/4/07 - A special graphic for you on your anniversary / Stephanie ~. Daughter Of Anita Yeo (angel friend )
I know how hard it must be to miss your Mom. Really try to think of the good memories and also allow yourself to go through all your feelings and thoughts. Try not to hold them inside. Your Mom was such a special lady and will always love you. And she'll always be watching over you, no matter where you are. God bless you and I hope you like this simple graphic. Love always, Steph
Remembering You on Your Angelversary / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )
Thank you for introducing me to your mother. She was an amazing woman to keep fighting with all her struggles. I chose this picture because once she arrived at Heaven's Gates I truly believe she left behind all her illness and was radiant. Obviously her love shines through you as you are an amazing daughter. I'm keeping you both in my heart as Ellie's angel date quickly approaches.
Cheryl and Family, I am so sorry to hear about Ellie. She was a very special person to me and my kids. She was always a joy. She will be greatly missed. You are in my prayers. I am at great peace knowing that she is not in pain any more. I have many great memories of her. She has not only gone to be with the angles, but she is going to be one of the greatest angles herself. Love, Tina, Tessa, and Carol
Miss Ellie / Debby Bradley (friend)
Cheri, I couldn't say all that I wanted earlier. Your Mom was so special, just seeing her smile and the way her eyes would lightup when we would go out to eat is what I will remember the most. She was a real fighter and I know she stayed with us as long as she could. I hope you know how lucky you are to have had such a special Mom. From the first time I met her I just fell in love with her personality and free spirit. She may have lost her speech but she knew how to get her message across! Please remember that you did everything possible and sometimes impossible for her and that she loved you so much. Try to keep all the good times in your mind and let go of these past few days. If you need anything just call or drop by. My Mom is here for you also. Love You like a Sister, Debby
Hope you had a happy Thanksgiving Day in Heaven. This was your 2nd Thanksgiving in Heaven.
I thought of you all day today while preparing Thanksgiving Dinner. With each thing I made, I could remember everything you had ever taught me. They were all your recipies.
Sophie and I put up the Christmas tree last night and I just thought how much you would have enjoyed it. I miss you and love you now, always & forever.
FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS... / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.18, 2008 )Read >>
FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS... / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.18, 2008 ) Close
REMEMBERING YOU ON YOUR ANGEL DATE.... / IRENE MOM TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.18, 2008 )Read >>
REMEMBERING YOU ON YOUR ANGEL DATE.... / IRENE MOM TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.18, 2008 )
Dear Ellen God bless you and all those that miss you so much...remembering you on your angel date with love...love always ..irene mommy to angel..kayla xavier...forever.
DEAR MOM ON YOUR 2ND ANGELVERSARY / Cheri (Daughter)Read >>
DEAR MOM ON YOUR 2ND ANGELVERSARY / Cheri (Daughter)
To my precious momma,
It's been two years now. But it hasn't gotten easier yet. I miss you more and love you more each and every day. There's no place I go that I don't see something that reminds me of you. I was at Wal Mart a few days ago and walked by the house slippers and it was hard for me not to buy you a pair. That's what I'm supposed to be doing. And then I see your favorite candy or the pictures that you love to color.
I'm so lost without you. I need you to know something. About a month before you passed away, I was in the hospital for a few days. I know the little girl in you didn't understand why I wasn't there to see you. I was calling the nursing home everyday and they told me you were doing good. I know the day before I went to the hospital you were in your wheelchair and we ate a piece of pizza and you drank your Mountain Dew. Then when I came back, you were almost gone.
I need you to know that I didn't abandon you Mom. I don't know why the nursing home didn't feed you or turn you while I was gone. They never agreed with your oncologist or me about doing chemo. I'm so sorry some of the nurses were so mean to you. I tried to have you moved. Most of them were wonderful. Just a few that was really rude and refused to turn you so you wouldn't get that awful infection on your back and the one who kept taking your pain patches.
Alot of people want me to do something about what happened at the nursing home. I have struggled with this decision for two years now. I had your memorial service there to help heal the bad feelings. All your friends were there. Even the ones in the nursing home. I didn't see those two nurses. I don't think I can go through everything again Mom. I feel like I should just let your memory now rest in peace and not drag all that stuff back up from the moment you were first diagnosed with sarcoma. I wish you could tell me what to do. So all I can do is just let it go because it won't bring you back to me. I hope you can understand and won't be mad at me. My brother and my dad and my kids know that I took the very best care of you from the moment you had your stroke. And those that didn't agree with the decision for chemo were not the ones who took care of you from day one of your stroke. I went with the advice of the oncologist and that's what mattered. When it was time not to continue, I listened to them. You were having such an awful time, I couldn't make you go on. I felt like you were telling me it was time to let you go. I had alot of help from your preacher and lots of prayers to come to that decision. I know it was the right thing to do, but it still doesn't make it easier to let you go.
I know there were angels there with you at the end. You were talking to them. I know they are with you now. Not alot has changed since you've been gone except now you have another great-grandbaby. Her name is Vivian Grace. She is Sophie's sister. You would love her so much Mom. She's just as adorable as Sophie. Lindsay's is going to have a baby in April.
So Mom watch over us all until we meet again. I'll love you forever and always.
DEAR ELLEN ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY.... / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.3, 2008 )Read >>
DEAR ELLEN ,HAPPY BIRTHDAY.... / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.3, 2008 )
Dear Ellen , Happy Birthday....you are so missesd and loved by all your family and friends that wish you were here to celabrate your birthday...but they all have your here, in their hearts...love always....irene, mommy to angel....kayla xavier...forever.
DEAR ELLEN, REMEMBERING YOU ON YOUR ANGEL DATE.. / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.3, 2008 )Read >>
DEAR ELLEN, REMEMBERING YOU ON YOUR ANGEL DATE.. / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (NOV.3, 2008 )
Dear Ellen remembering you on your angel date with love...God bless you and all those that miss you so much....love always...irene mommy to angel ...Kayla Xavier...... forever
IN LOVING MEMORY OF ANGEL ELLEN / Carol Carico (none)Read >>
IN LOVING MEMORY OF ANGEL ELLEN / Carol Carico (none)
Holding you close in thoughts and prayers as we remember your Precious Angel Mom Ellen on her approaching heavenly anniversary and birthday. Pray the day goes peacefully for you and you receive many signs from your angel. A candle will burn in memory of your angel. i know the pain of losing a mom as i lost mine will be 12 years tomorrow. Love & Hugs Carol AngelMichael's Mom
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Cheryl and Family,
