To my precious momma,

It's been two years now. But it hasn't gotten easier yet. I miss you more and love you more each and every day. There's no place I go that I don't see something that reminds me of you.
I was at Wal Mart a few days ago and walked by the house slippers and it was hard for me not to buy you a pair. That's what I'm supposed to be doing. And then I see your favorite candy or the pictures that you love to color.

I'm so lost without you. I need you to know something. About a month before you passed away, I was in the hospital for a few days. I know the little girl in you didn't understand why I wasn't there to see you. I was calling the nursing home everyday and they told me you were doing good. I know the day before I went to the hospital you were in your wheelchair and we ate a piece of pizza and you drank your Mountain Dew. Then when I came back, you were almost gone.

I need you to know that I didn't abandon you Mom. I don't know why the nursing home didn't feed you or turn you while I was gone. They never agreed with your oncologist or me about doing chemo. I'm so sorry some of the nurses were so mean to you. I tried to have you moved. Most of them were wonderful. Just a few that was really rude and refused to turn you so you wouldn't get that awful infection on your back and the one who kept taking your pain patches.

Alot of people want me to do something about what happened at the nursing home. I have struggled with this decision for two years now. I had your memorial service there to help heal the bad feelings. All your friends were there. Even the ones in the nursing home. I didn't see those two nurses. I don't think I can go through everything again Mom. I feel like I should just let your memory now rest in peace and not drag all that stuff back up from the moment you were first diagnosed with sarcoma. I wish you could tell me what to do. So all I can do is just let it go because it won't bring you back to me. I hope you can understand and won't be mad at me. My brother and my dad and my kids know that I took the very best care of you from the moment you had your stroke. And those that didn't agree with the decision for chemo were not the ones who took care of you from day one of your stroke. I went with the advice of the oncologist and that's what mattered. When it was time not to continue, I listened to them. You were having such an awful time, I couldn't make you go on. I felt like you were telling me it was time to let you go. I had alot of help from your preacher and lots of prayers to come to that decision. I know it was the right thing to do, but it still doesn't make it easier to let you go.

I know there were angels there with you at the end. You were talking to them. I know they are with you now. Not alot has changed since you've been gone except now you have another great-grandbaby. Her name is Vivian Grace. She is Sophie's sister. You would love her so much Mom. She's just as adorable as Sophie. Lindsay's is going to have a baby in April.

So Mom watch over us all until we meet again. I'll love you forever and always.

PRECIOUS ELLEN,

HOLDING YOU AND YOUR LOVING FAMILY WARMLY IN MY HEART. GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. SENDING LOTS OF LOVE.

Dear Ellen , Happy Birthday....you are so missesd and loved by all your family and friends that wish you were here to celabrate your birthday...but they all have your here, in their hearts...love always....irene, mommy to angel....kayla xavier...forever.

Dear Ellen remembering you on your angel date with love...God bless you and all those that miss you so much....love always...irene mommy to angel ...Kayla Xavier...... forever

Holding you close in thoughts and prayers as we remember your Precious Angel Mom Ellen on her approaching heavenly anniversary and birthday. Pray the day goes peacefully for you and you receive many signs from your angel. A candle will burn in memory of your angel. i know the pain of losing a mom as i lost mine will be 12 years tomorrow.
Love & Hugs
Carol
AngelMichael's Mom

Hoping you are enjoying Heaven and all it's glory

Praying for your family,

Bridget

Dear Cheri,

What a wonderful person you are to create such a beautiful site for your precious Mom. I haven't been touched by words for awhile, but yours were just so beautiful.

Your Mom must have been so happy to be able to live with you for the last thirteen years of her life. It's not every daughter that would take on the care taking of a parent. Especially, when the roles are reversed.

God blessed your Mom, with you and your family. He knew what he was doing when she awoke after seven months. I'm sure your children made her life enriching.

When I think of you and your Mom, I will always remember the words "E-boy!" If when we are reunited with our loved ones one day, and by chance we get to know the Angel families that we've met throu the passing of our beloved ones, the first thing I will say to your Mom is "E-boy!", and hopefully that will bring back all the caring and wonderful memories she had of you taking care of her.

Cheri, I'm sure every day you wonder if you did the right thing in letting your Mom go. You did the best and bravests thing for her. Cancer isn't an easy thing. I love my parents so much and I never want to see them die, but if they were in pain, and I knew they weren't able to get better, I hope I have your devotion and strength and love to let them go and not let them suffer.

God bless you Cheri and I always say "What goes around, comes around". One day your children may have to take care of you. They will probably do a great job, seeing how great you were with your Mom. Live each day to the fullest now, knowing you let your Mom died happy, peacefully, and loved.

Sending love and hugs xoxoxo

Donna Robert Mom to http://www.angie-robert.memory-of.com